Times, they are a changing

In the last couple weeks, my life path has changed yet again….nothing ever seems to stay the same, but this time I am thrilled about the things that are happening!  I left a job where I was miserable, underappreciated, and under paid.  Leaving my little guy to go to a job where I was unhappy just didn’t sit well with me.  Not to mention, I was literally working to put him into daycare.  Enough about the unhappy stuff! 

This past Thursday I started a job that I am thrilled about!  When I was little, I visited my cousin’s grandmother’s bed and breakfast.  I loved the big old house that she had, and it just fascinated me that she got to share her home with other people, and she got to cook for all of them!  (Cooking has always been a passion for me!) So, I decided that one day I would own a B & B!  Well, I am not at that point yet, but I am working at one 🙂 And so far, I am really enjoying it! 

I also started a new journey that I hope will get me to weight goal, but most of all to my health goal!  I have become a beach body coach!  This is something that I am really excited about, and I hope that I can help others on their journey to a healthier life!

We are now down to less than 6 months before the wedding and I am feeling a little overwhelmed with that, but I am SO excited for the time to get here!  I can’t wait to see my dad, and my other family that is coming to share in our special day!  But more than anything, I can’t wait to marry my best friend! 

I am really excited about all the things that are going on right now!  I really look forward to meeting new people on my journey and helping them reach their goals!!

Hit by reality…

I am sitting here tonight, realizing that my life is about to change drastically, in more ways than one.

Not only am I right smack in the middle of planning our wedding, which I had no idea would be so overwhelming…but I am also just 1 week away from going back to work full time.  I have been at home since I got put on bedrest in January, with the exception of 1 day a week for the last 7 months.

I have been home with my precious boy for almost 8 months….around him practically 24/7….the thought of being away from him breaks my heart into a million pieces.  But, I know that I am doing this for all the right reasons.   The reality is, we are planning a wedding….I don’t want to rely on other people to pay for it.  I also know that monkey deserves to spend time around other children, and to get the chance to learn, and to really have a schedule.  I know that is important for him to have that structure in his life, but it is also so hard to think about someone else being there when he starts to crawl and walk….comforting him when he gets hurt….laughing with him…getting my cuddles, and my bonding time.  I am in tears just thinking about it….the biggest comfort I have though, is knowing that he will be in wonderful hands…I just hope that my heart can handle it.  I feel like I was robbed of a lifetime of these memories with Bryce and Keiran, I don’t want to miss a second with Tristan.  So if anyone is actually reading this, please pray for me as I countdown my final days at home with my baby boy….I need all the strength and prayers I can get.